unwanted child

You are the biggest looser,just good for nothing,someone shouted at the top of his/her voice,she turned around in an enigma coz there was no one else in the room except her,then who could it be..she heard the same voice once again n this time she made no mistake in realizing that it was the voice of her inner conscience..
She sat by the window looking at the sky..
The moon was high,n stars were scattered all ovr the sky..
She reminisced her past..to find out where did she go wrong..or was she herself the soul reason behind her failures..
When her presence was felt in her mother’s womb,
Mother went to the doc to get the blooming bud aborted,as she was already blessed with three bright sons..and one more child in this exorbitantly priced environment would have proved to be a burden on her happy family..little did she know that it was a boy or a girl..
But destiny plays its game,docs denied for nipping the bud as it was too late..
Father was desperate for a daughter,n his wish was granted by the arrival of a daughter..“three sons brighter than sun,n a daughter prettier than moon,oh my love,how to tell u what you have given me”
No one knew what the future had in store for this little princess..the brothers were blossoming n spreading diverse fragrance,which was a sigh of delight for her..but what bout her?? despite being loved by everyone she knew the fact that she was not as good as her brothers in any respect......but its rightly said , where the foundation is unstable there is always a danger for the building to collapse.. but was it her fault??she was not the founder of her own self..wen she was young..she was like a wet clay..which could be molded in any form..bt the mold chosen for her ws deformed..
she was unable to explain it to the whole world that all are not the same… so she secluded herself from others..she was invisible coz no one ever wanted to see her,she was different,different from the rest,so they ignored her..she saw them laugh she saw them cry but she was never a part of them..coz she didn’t met their stature,she too cried,cried in dark,and in falls where no one cud see her…
every time she tried to come up..she was overpowered,and humiliated..she was crawling,crawling at her own pace..n every time she fell she had to start it from scratch..
she hated the sigh of sympathy n pity for her in others eyes..she wanted to break free n shout,shout as much as possible but she couldn’t do so..becoz she was living in a respectable society..
she stood all alone with stretched arms wanting others to accept her..to accept her as she is..
she knew she have to resurrect herself..she cant let her failures overshadow her existence..the best way she found to do so was, to stop expecting from herself..coz expectations hurts.She was determined to be her own creator now..so wat if thousands of failures come her way..she had the courage to face it with humility..
she still sat by the window looking at the sky,
the cool breeze brushed of her cheeks letting her hairs to fly..
a drop of tear rolled down her eyes,saying that her past is over..
and this time she saw the new horizon,spreading its hue all over..